Sitting in the airport and as usual, it’s a great time and opportunity to think, reflect and write. I’m flying to Nice, but have to fly via Paris, so I’m spending more or less all day today in the air and on the airport. It’s fine, but to be honest, I find airports a bit melancholic and sad (I’m also awaiting my period ;)). People come and go, and everyone keeps staring at their phones. As do I. It’s lonely to travel alone, especially on a day like today when I’m traveling with mixed emotions.

I’m overwhelmed with excitement about getting this opportunity to take part of the Cannes film festival, but I feel really sad about leaving the kids- again. They are reacting to me being away, and I feel like I’ve been telling them that: “mommy will be back very soon“ too much and for too long now. My son wants to be held all the time and at night, he wants to be as close to me as possible and keeps waking up just to make sure I’m still there. On the contrary, I always feel a bit guilty when I travel/work/study or do anything that requires me being away from them, so I’m sure it’s also healthy for all of us to practice separating and reuniting. It’s just that my heart is always with them, so whatever I do, and wherever I go, I can’t fully enjoy it without having my batteries fully charged with all the little and big things that makes my life feel meaningful. And, although I feel meaningful and fulfilled when I get to do what I love and within my work, my family is what makes me feel grounded.

This is the very last work trip I have booked for this Spring, so by telling you, black on white that I will slow down, makes it more of a real promise to myself. And, until then, I will just have to try to be present and enjoy this one of a lifetime and extremely privileged opportunity I have to not only get to work with what I love, but also get these unique experiences.

I know I’ve been ranting about the same subject for some time already, but since I know you appreciate real dairy-like content, I can’t keep myself from sharing that this is one of the things I struggle with all the time. Maybe there are other parents who struggle with the same kind of thoughts?

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Pictures by Juuli Rönkä

Happy Mother’s Day to all mums who do their very best, unselfishly, every single day. I am forever grateful to my own mum for being so supportive, loving and such a great role model. She isn’t perfect, and that is something I am very grateful for today in my own role as a mother. We are so good at putting pressure on ourselves, comparing ourselves and trying to be super women today, therefore I believe that vulnerability, weakness’ and imperfections are extremely important to show as well. We put enough expectations on ourselves and walk around feeling guilty about all the things we didn’t manage to achieve, represent and do. I would never want my children to grow up feeling that kind of pressure from me. So, showing our shortcomings is only healthy I think.

And also, a big thank you to my amazing kids who are my true saviors in life. They teach me to live in the moment, to feel alive, to see the beauty in the simplest things, to love and value myself more and to appreciate every person’s uniqueness. They are so purely optimistic, curious, open minded and liberal. My kids are superstars and I’m privileged to be a part of their lives.

Pictures by Janita Autio