Destination unknown
Right this moment I’m sitting here writing an essay about my university studies. Doing that makes me realize how unfocused and unmotivated I’ve been lately. I’v had so many deadlines, papers, essay’s and presentations lately, I feel like I’m completing task by task just to get them over with. I hate when what I do only becomes all about accomplishment and the pleasure of completing the process disappears. Where did all my motivation and ambition get lost?
I have chosen to do things in a different order than many other in my age, and to be completely honest I sometimes feel like no matter how much work and time I put in, it will take me forever to reach the goals I’ve set for myself regarding my studies. Just like last time I’ve decided to take a break from school when baby number two arrives, since I want to completely free myself from all the extra pressure and focus on what my life is all about. It’s hard though. It was very hard to get back on track with school after a longer break at home with Greta, and I know it won’t be easy next time around either.
All I know is that I need to fully allow myself to enjoy my children while they are small. Because I know time passes in a blink of the eye, and that I will never ever regret being there to see the growth and development of my children, as well as create memories with them we’ll have forever to look back on.
jacket filippa k// dress minimum// sneakers new balance// beanie cos//
bag louis vuitton// sunglasses ray ban
Pictures by Dora Dalila
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You got it all figured out mama, always follow what your heart is telling you. The inspiration and drive will eventualy come back and getting back in the swing of things like school, it’s like with swimming, even when you think that you forgot how to do it, you just do it and suddenly realize that you still got what it “takes”!
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I know, that’s how it always is. It feels like a struggle but in the end I usually find myself getting everything done and everything turned out ok :).
Is Greta exiting about getting big sister?
Hmmm I don’t think she understands the reality of it yet, but yes :)
Is it true that Greta is turning 2 very soon? Love your outfit!!
Greta turned two today! Hurray <3
When is due date?
I don’t belive in due dates ;). Babies seem to have a way of coming when they want to ;)
You are just a amazing role male to me >3!!! Wish you all the best before the baby is due!! Rock, rock!! p.s I can´t wait to see the new pictures od the new born. They are always such a break breaks!!!<3 Lots and love pations to you Sofia!!! you´la be strong and I can´t with to see how the derives went!! And also hello to your miss Greata for getting big sister and I know it can+t be easy when you are not the only baby in the household!!!
You are very sweet and so supportive! I appreciate it very much and wish you all the happiness, luck, health and love in your life <3.
Heart knows :-) <3 It's true that babies grow so fast and time flies. I think we will miss back to each age child have had. I kind of get sentimental when thinking my niece as she still was a little baby and younger even if it's perfect to be 5-year old girl <3
I think we love every age as much, but miss every age that pass as well. It’s the same with myself actually. I love every age within myself, but I can also look back, cherish and miss my past ages in my life.
I am so sorry for being so rude and asking all the personal questions!!
höpöhöpö ;)
Itselläni on aivan samoja tuntemuksia kanssasi! Vaikka minulla onkin unelma-ammattini takataskussa, vaatisi siinä vielä kehittyminen paljon aikaa ja tavoitteellista panostusta asiaan. Paljon olisi saavutettavaa sen suhteen, ja siitä olen kauan haaveillut, mutta vaikka kuinka olisin motivoitunut, on sellainen olo, että minun on oltava lasteni kanssa kotona, kun he vielä ovat pieniä ja tarvitsevat äitiään. Toisaalta takaraivossa kolkuttelee ajatus siitä, mahdankohan koskaan saavuttaa ammatillisia haaveitani…vanhat opiskelukaverini porskuttavat jo johtotehtävissä ja ovat esimiehiäni, kun palaan kunnolla työelämään, se hieman ahdistaa. Mutta toisaalta tärkeintä on nähdä lapseni onnellisina ja hyvinvoivina. Pitäisi muistaa, että elämä ei ole suorittamista, vaan matkasta pitäisi nauttia sen varrella. Sitä ammattia tai muuta ei saa mukaansa, muistoja vain :)
Liikutuin kun luin kommenttisi, sillä se oli taas hyvä muistutus siitä mikä on aivan totta. Elämä ei ole suorittamista ja siitä tulisi nauttia. Miten vaikeaa se voi ollakkaan muistaa tämä asia joka aamu kun herää? Minulle on myös vaikea erottaa milloin asioista josta nautin ja teen ilomielin tulee suorittaminen ja taakka. Omalta äidiltäni olen oppinut että omien lasten lapsuudessa läsnä oleminen on kultaa arvokkaampaa ja asia jota ei koskaan tule katumaan. “Some people are so poor, all they have is money”