Dream map

Fashion,personal,3 May 2019

In the middle of this funk, I was sort of saved by yesterday’s lecture at school. “Saved” is perhaps a bit exaggerated, but at least it helped me think and feel more at ease. So, today’s lecture was about personal branding and as we all know, all of us brand ourselves in every social situation. Not to even mention how much we brand ourselves through social media. I both consciously and unconsciously brand myself all the time. I make decisions about what, how much and how little I share and then I let my work, my input and personality speak as well. I am well aware of how I want to be perceived by others, but what hit me today, was to think about what I wantinstead of what I want to represent. For me, that’s a trickier question and requires practice.

Whenever I’m in a situation where I can make a wish or think over my dreams, I always wish for the same thing; for my children to be well and happy. Of course, that’s my biggest and most important priority and wish, but it’s like I don’t allow myself to ever wish for anything else. So, when the lecturer encouraged us to make dream maps, I felt like that’s something for me. And, something I want to tip you about.

A dream map is a collage made out of inspiring pictures, quotes, items and writing from for example magazines. It’s very individual, but you’re supposed to place it on a visual spot so that you constantly see it and remind yourself of where you wantto go. Then, you can renew it and change it as much as you want along the way. Just by reflecting over what you want, figure it out and then physically make a visual reminder, something more tangible, it will help you get there.

The only problem is, that I really don’t know what I want to include in my dream map. I have most of the things I ever dreamed of, yet I always want more, but feel too afraid to admit that since my number one priority are my children and family. My dreams are more about what I want and wish for them. However, now when I’m creating my dream map, I want it to be focused on what I want for myself.

My dream map will include everything from career goals and dreams to personal development, travels, spirituality and relationships. Now I just need to figure out and clarify with myself what it is I actually want, without letting the environment I live in, our society and culture reflect their expectations on me. That is the trickiest part.

What’s on your dream map?

outfit andiata// sandals zara// bag louis vuitton

Pictures by Juuli Rönkä

Against the odds

Fashion,29 April 2019

Some days, activities and moments have all the right ingredients to become a success, but sometimes, against all odds they fail. This feeling describes this weekend. We did nice things and I of course loved being with the family, but I felt emotionally exhausted, low, anxious and disconnected. It’s my worst feeling because no matter how hard I try I can’t enjoy it. I hope this low I’m in will pass fast, because although I have about a month left before the load gets easier, it’s my busiest and most pressured month this year. I need to find strength, but today, right now it feels difficult. I don’t want to complain, but I know you appreciate when I share some of my reality as well. Or at least I hope you do…

Feels kind of strange to mix outfit pictures with writing that isn’t as light and cheerful, but I guess that’s life, and nothing describes me as well as that intermix. Now, it’s time for me to force myself out to get fresh air and collect some new freckles. See you tomorrow!

blazer tiger of sweden// knit stylein// skirt soft goat// boots zara// bag chanel

Pictures by Juuli Rönkä