There are so many thoughts going through my head today and I already wrote a marathon long text about my actual thoughts and worries, but then everything felt ridiculous… Had to delete it. Now, more than ever do I feel too privileged to speak. My heart is full of worry about how our society will keep its head above the water. I’m fine, therefore it’s easy to try to focus on the positive side of things, but this terrible crisis that touches so many areas makes my stomach hurt when I think about everyone treading water and going down with it.

We got no other option than to try to find strength in those little things, stay hopeful and trust that good beats the bad, but the feeling of unfairness feels more tangible than ever here in our beloved country. Can you actually believe that we are living this right now? I can’t, most of the times. What I’ve found helpful is to try to stick to routines. It feels safe, calms anxiety and keeps me sane most of the time. Just a little tip from one anxious soul to another ;).

I’m going to try to continue as usual as long as it feels ok, but I want you to know that all of this affects me very much emotionally and I don’t want to be ignorant. I would love to get your feedback on what kind of content you prefer right now, if any at all? Wondering what I’ll feel about these posts years after this…

I’m doing my best to help those I need the way I can. There are many ways to help, so let’s all do what we can and most importantly, let’s stick together! Love to ya’ll! suit Custommade// shoes Manolo Blahnik

While my brain slowly starts to feel like mashed potatoes, I realized, that I have one isolated space to escape too. Our new apartment! It’s completely under construction and looks like a war zone, but the light never disappoints and most importantly, it’s totally corona -free. So today, I’m going to dress up (aka wear my best pajama) and go to work with a big bottle of hand sanitizer, some toilet paper and my laptop under my arm.

I’ve been trying to come up with things to put our time and energy towards now when we have way more time on our hands. The apartment would be the most natural project, but unfortunately, we are still planning the floorplan and overall layout so we are much dependent of other people and there is not much we can do by ourselves. It’s way more difficult than expected to fit all our wishes and demands into one space, but we are getting there!!! However, it looks like our days with a big and gorgeous walk-in-closet are over. I want a big kitchen and dining room instead, so I think we’ve finally come up with a compromise that feels really good. That’s adulting if something, no?

I want a white kitchen with coffee colored marble and a huge black dining table. Love the one in this collage! Pretty much exactly how I imagine our dining space to look like. I even ordered a painting from the most talented artist I know. Art is so important to me and brings personality into any space. Can’t wait for the project to proceed. May all of this be over very soon.

 

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